In Memory Of Mariah Awillow Christine.shauna matthews mcinnes

02/07/2019

I never thought after losing a precious child that the world would remain so cruel to me, people please be mindful you never know the pain of a person and treat each one you encounter with delicacy just in case.

11/15/2018

Sorry I didn't go see you today baby. It is the first time I've had to miss our special day since I laid you to rest.

02/27/2016

We all miss you so much, precious angel baby.

Each teardop brings a memory ..xx

12/13/2015

To my angel, I love you and miss you every day. I would trade my last breath to give you life again. Things have gotten really hard, and it doesn't seem fair that no matter how hard I try to make it..the further I sink. People are turning their backs on me..please guide me now. I need to find my way to peace, independence, survival..and I need these obstacles blown down.

02/11/2015

I miss you Mariah. The tears have quit falling..the pain swept outta view. Life has went on..and the guilt of moving on is no more. But still every now and then when I have ceased moving and doing you cross my mind and I wonder how different my life would be if you were still here. I love you baby girl.

12/18/2014

I only knew you a short while..but you helped everyone in your life so much. I keep thinking what would you be like now..sigh. I also know you were just a borrowed angel and it was time for you to go back to heaven. I love you so dearly..and can't wait to hold you again one day.

11/18/2014

We miss you, sweet baby.

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08/27/2014

Happy two year birthday my sweet pea.I love you and miss you so very much.r.I.p.

07/24/2014

Today has been a really hard day.I have thought of you and cried every thirty minutes.I pray and pray that I can quit feeling this pain..because it has to quit hurting..it has to. I cant live like this! I despise myself for being so vulnerable and weak..I mean..its almost been two years since you died..and I only knew you for a short while. So why is it so hard to just know you were sent to me my angel to put me where I needed to be to find myself? I know uou werent mine to keep, but I wish you were! I love you

07/20/2014

I will not give up. You were sent to me to put me where I need to be..and taken from me before this world could taint you. I love you so much still my angel..I still feel you with me..I still hear your cry every night at 4 am. I still play thru that night when you left me..and the hope and denial I felt when you were on life support. And I still feel cold on my left cheek sometimes..where you used to kiss me. I wish I could go back in time just to hold u one more time..so I could forget how it felt to hold your cold stiff body as you took your last breath. I love you sweet babygirl..please continue to watch over your family and friends...ill never never forget you.

12/05/2013

Alright.i need to decorate my babys grave for Christmas.if anyone has anything theyd like to let me use for this,let me know.

10/18/2013

Reba Singing Angel's Lullaby from "Reba"....Sorry bout the label in the corner, came from the software. I own NOTHING!