06/24/2020
A beautiful morning, a glorious day
Everything is fresh and green, a lushness in nature.
A date, a moment in time that is seared in my memory. A morning I was being prepped for
the birth of my twins. A day of such anticipation, excitement, and wonder. Will the babies be ok, who will they look like, two baby boys, two baby girls, a boy and a girl…all a miracle in the making.
So much commotion in the operating room, multiple pediatricians, surgeons, nurses and operating room assistants. A bright light, drifting off and seemingly awake in just minutes. A baby girl born at 9:45 am , a baby boy born at 9:47 am. A month pre-mature, 5lbs 10 oz. and 5 lbs 9 oz, tiny, but healthy. My little girl, strong, alert, bright eyed. My little boy, a minor problem and wisked off to the neonatal ICU for observation. Learning to nurse these tiny beings, these miracles, tender and loving moments, and comical at times. They had to stay at the hospital for a week after their birth and I was sent home without my precious little ones…..I went everyday to feed them and hold them, to stay as long as they would allow me to stay. There was such a profound longing to be there with them, such joy the day they got to come home with me, and oh my goodness, a new reality …. little to no sleep…feeding them every two hours, how could there be sheer exhaustion and joy at the same time? The days grew into months and years filled with laughter, music, tears, T-Ball, ballet, hugs and kisses, more hugs and kisses, then profound loss, many tears, I could hardly breath…..our baby boy, now a young man, a son who was a blessing to so many, taken from us by the careless, evil act of another. He rests in God’s arms now.
In just a few short weeks, we will be filled with unspeakable joy and tears of a different sort as our baby girl, now a beautiful young woman, becomes a bride and starts her own family. Seeing her walk down the isle will most certainly take my breath away. Life and Love abounds in the hopes and dreams of children and if we are so blessed, yet again, to have the privilege and awe of looking into the eyes of another baby boy and baby girl, I will surely share many hugs and kisses… tears will flow, and they too will take my breath away.
Thank you God for the gift of Melissa and Michael.