01/03/2024
My sweet boy...mamá is still in disbelief that I no longer have you here by my side physically because in my heart, you will ALWAYS REMAIN. Several times, I've asked myself how..am I here still here, breathing and existing without you... this was NOT supposed to happen. I am sure that God had great plans for you now that you completed your earthly mission, but I didn't think your mission would be so short. I guess Jesus wanted to save you from all the hurt, sorry. pain & suffering this world is full of! 💔 But Mama... needed you here & i wanted you to build your life & have everything you wanted! Now you're with abuela that you sooooo very much missed & I'm here with your brother Angel, who needs me. I pray to Jesus to let me live a long time for him because, anyway... we are all headed to the same place, sooner or later... HEAVEN! The only things I can think of that keep me pushing forward... even on the many days I just want to let go and sleep forever..is my very strong faith that you know I have, Angel & our fur babies. Also, the strength that I saw my mom have after her son, your uncle, also named Rene, pass at 17, remembering that you wanted me to take care of myself & just honoring your beautiful life for the rest of mines!! My son... always on my mind 24/7. I try to be strong, but the pain on my bad days is soooooo unbearable. It just stings right in the center of my chest. There are no words that can explain the loss, my boy. You touched many people's lives, and i learned that days after you passed. You were a good man & I was always proud of you. Wait for mamá my love... life is just an instant, I will see you soon! Till then, my love...I will continue to see you in my dreams ✨️ Always...mamá loves you to the moon 🌙 and back, to eternity and beyond!!!