05/12/2025
Untamed
Episode Twelve
Tamilore thought about the conversation she had with her mentor earlier that morning as she sent out job applications. Her mentor had collected the book where she wrote all the offences she felt she had committed against God, looked through it briefly, and burnt it the same way she had burnt the previous one. Watching the book go up in flames felt strangely freeing, like watching emotional baggage turn to ash.
Her mentor had then handed her a scripture from the book of Isaiah.
He blots out our transgressions, the chastisement of our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed.
Tamilore held on to that scripture as though it was the last thread tying her sanity together. Healing⊠she needed that desperately.
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Later that day, Tamilore attended her sisterâs introduction ceremony. The moment she stepped into her motherâs compound, she transformed into a certified firstborn daughter: carrying trays, ensuring the cooler of jollof didnât mysteriously disappear, settling unnecessary quarrels between aunties, and smiling for pictures she didnât want to take.
By the end of the ceremony, she was thoroughly exhausted. Her feet were aching, her cheeks hurt from forced smiles, and her head throbbed from the chorus of nosy aunties.
And of course, the famous question came repeatedly like a national anthem.
"When are you bringing your own man home?"
Some said it with genuine concern. Others said it with the kind of curiosity that deserved a fine from the federal government. One aunty even whispered, âYou are next in Jesus' name,â the way someone might whisper a curse. Tamilore had simply smiled and nodded, praying internally for strength not to roll her eyes.
Seyi walked up to her later, smiling widely. "Sista mi, thank you for today. I really appreciate all you do for me."
Tamilore smiled back. Her sister looked so happy. Radiant even. Nothing like the nervous bride-to-be she had calmed down that morning when Seyi almost cried because her gele wasnât sitting properly.
"Today would have been perfect if daddy and Muyiwa were present," Seyi added, her voice dropping into sadness.
Tamilore felt her chest tighten. There was something about the way Seyi said âdaddyâ that tugged at the part of her heart she kept sealed.
"I actually heard about daddy from my friend," she said slowly. "He is not in Nigeria and was very sick years ago."
Seyiâs eyes widened. "Really? Why did you not tell me?"
Tamilore swallowed. Her tongue suddenly felt heavy. "I wanted you to have your big day without drama," she lied lightly.
The lie tasted bitter.
Lord⊠forgive me, she prayed in her heart. This lie is small but my conscience is loud.
Seyi nodded thoughtfully, but Tamilore saw the slight confusion in her sisterâs eyes. Seyi was forgetful, yes, but she wasnât foolish. Memories came and went with her like the wind. One minute she remembered their father leaving; the next she could barely recall what caused the quarrel between their parents.
Tamiloreâs mind drifted to the little burnt booksâpages of anger, accusations, and hurt. She remembered how her mentor had placed the scripture of forgiveness in her hands. She had nodded that day. But forgiveness was easier in theory than in practice. Especially when pain had settled in her bones for twelve years.
"I lied," Tamilore confessed suddenly.
Seyi blinked. "Lied about what?"
"It wasnât about your big day," she said, biting her lower lip. "I was not ready to let go of the past." She exhaled deeply, as though her heart was finally letting air out after a long time. "Lydia actually offered to give me his contact, but I refused. I even made her promise not to give him mine."
Seyi stared at her for a moment, then sighed. "Oh, sista mi... I know he hurt us, but I think there might be things we donât know about why daddy left."
Tamilore looked at her sharply. "We both know why daddy left. He left because of mummy."
"Yes, because of mummy," Seyi said softly, twisting the end of her wrapper absentmindedly, "but it was more than the domestic abuse he suffered."
Tamiloreâs forehead creased. "What are you talking about?"
Seyi hesitated, looking around as though the walls had ears. She leaned closer and whispered, "There were things mummy hid. Things daddy went through that we didnât know."
Her voice trembled. Tamilore had never seen her sister look so unsure, almost guilty, as though she knew something she wasnât sure she was ready to say.
Tamilore felt her heart thump harder. She suddenly wasnât sure she wanted the answer, yet she needed it.
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Far away, Daniel Raphael stared at the pictures from his daughterâs introduction ceremony on Instagram. He zoomed in on every picture, trying to catch a glimpse of Tamiloreâs faceâher real face, not the smiling one she put on for cameras. She had grown. Both of them had. Twelve years had changed a lot.
What would he not give to restore the relationship he once shared with his girls?
Twelve long years.
One year of refusing to sign divorce papers.
One year in jail, untried, accused of attempting to kidnap his own daughter.
Six years battling cancer and fighting for his life while thinking of two girls who probably thought he no longer loved them.
Four years rebuilding his life, gathering strength, and gathering wealth by the grace of God.
And now, just a few months to wait before he could finally see them again.
He sighed.
His wife, Eniola⊠she had hurt him badly. Very badly.
Sometimes he wondered if things would have been different, less broken, if he had simply signed the divorce papers when she asked.
He rested his head against the chair and whispered, "God, help me. Help us. Let me fix what is left of my family."
The pictures on his phone glowed softly, showing the two daughters he had prayed for every day since he left.
He hoped they would forgive him.
He hoped they would understand the truth someday.
He hoped⊠they would let him be their father again.
© Deborah Oluwasegun
As Inspired By The Revealer of Secrets
Overflow Books