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Torment Poetry, Berlin (2026)

26/03/2026

You left me with a lesson A beautiful one, which I might have sacrificed If it meant being by your side.

My mind ran through the tapes of our times, Looking for the possible word-That one syllable of mine Which made you leave, leaving me to whine.

I would have pleaded you, Asked if you could wait for a while, But it seemed like you had plans for the night With the one you liked.

Regret biting my soul, I ponder upon If I could have done something-Something to tell you I had lost my heart. Maybe I waited too long, As now, both you and my heart were gone.

I sure can move on, Find someone to walk the beaches with, barefoot and quiet. The despair is not that there is not one like you rather it's the fear of searching for you In someone who may never know you.

21/03/2026

I saw you today, a stranger i once knew too well. your favourite colour, your favourite food, your 3 a.m. thoughts, the way you'd smile right before saying goodbye-i knew them all.

but today, i walked past you like we never dreamt the same future, as if my hands never waited for your name to light up a screen that stayed dark.

as if i never stayed up for that one call, that one text, that one-"let's try again." funny, isn't it? how we un-loved without even letting go..

i wonder, do you ever feel it too? because... i still love you, my favourite stranger

28/01/2025

It took me a very long time to discover myself in a way that I can express myself, my thoughts and visions. Is there anyone reading this? Can I really reach you with my words? Do I make a difference? That remains a question, but I like to try. And this is why: Along the way I found out what works and what doesn't work for me. I know my low points, my weaknesses and I know better than anyone how I work. As I always say, and it is and remains a cliché, treating another as you would like to be treated yourself is the key. Unfortunately, I cannot control how someone else thinks, how they treat me and in what situations that has brought me. A lot has happened so that I have lost hope often enough, confidence has been damaged and I have often stood on the brink of collapse. Yet with time and awareness I have found my way back and I have kept my goal in mind. I want to show who I am, not how someone else presents me or treats me. I want to share how I think and how things can be improved, I want to help those who have experienced the same thing, I want to help make this world a better place, at least I want to try.

When I was in a worse state, it was always something that was missing. Someone who understood me, who felt what I felt, who could articulate what was going on inside of me, someone who took care of me, someone who could guide me through the search and name of all the chaos inside of me. But when that person was not there, I only had two options, and I chose to fight. I wanted to discover who I was, what caused my thoughts, my questions and my emptiness, and how I could fill, name and express it, how I could find myself in the chaos, and make the chaos in the world change. I went through a development and growth that I never conceive until a few years ago.

I am an introvert, I am Highly Sensitive Person, someone with an extra sense, I see, feel and think deeply, intense and often. This has always been something that got in my way, and what I am uncertain about, I feel more vulnerable, because when you feel and experience everything so intensely, it can cause you enormous damage. I learned my lessons in this and formed my vision and passion. I want to help others see and feel that things can be different. Because it is possible, as long as you are willing to look at yourself with all pure and genuine intentions and to express this.

13/02/2024

I went to a party, Mom,
I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom,
So I drank soda instead.
I really felt proud inside, Mom,
The way you said I would.
I didn't drink and drive, Mom,
Even though the others said I should.
I know I did the right thing, Mom,
I know you are always right.
Now the party is finally ending, Mom,
As everyone is driving out of sight.
As I got into my car, Mom,
I knew I'd get home in one piece.
Because of the way you raised me,
So responsible and sweet.
I started to drive away, Mom,
But as I pulled out into the road,
The other car didn't see me, Mom,
And hit me like a load.
As I lay there on the pavement, Mom,
I hear the policeman say,
"The other guy is drunk," Mom,
And now I'm the one who will pay.
I'm lying here dying, Mom...
I wish you'd get here soon.
How could this happen to me, Mom?
My life just burst like a balloon.
There is blood all around me, Mom,
And most of it is mine.
I hear the medic say, Mom,
I'll die in a short time.
I just wanted to tell you, Mom,
I swear I didn't drink.
It was the others, Mom.
The others didn't think.
He was probably at the same party as I.
The only difference is,
he drank And I will die.
Why do people drink, Mom?
It can ruin your whole life.
I'm feeling sharp pains now.
Pains just like a knife.
The guy who hit me is walking, Mom,
And I don't think it's fair.
I'm lying here dying
And all he can do is stare.
Tell my brother not to cry, Mom.
Tell Daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven, Mom,
Put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have told him, Mom,
Not to drink and drive.
If only they had told him, Mom,
I would still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom.
I'm becoming very scared.
Please don't cry for me, Mom.
When I needed you,
you were always there.
I have one last question, Mom.
Before I say good bye.
I didn't drink and drive,
So why am I the one to die?

04/02/2024

Silence is never nothingness.
It never was.
It's full of confusing emotions,
Which remains unexpressed.
It's full of unspoken words,
Which makes our throat bleed
Just like the sharp broken pieces
of mirror.
It's full of unresolved mysteries,
Tangled like numerous threads.
It's full of awkward madness,
Beyond all the limitations,
Whether known or unknown.
Being comfortable with silence
Is rare art.
Those who experience
This uncomfortable comfort,
Fall in love with silence,
Where they experience
The unexpressed emotions,
Where they come across
The unspoken words,
Where they find
The old and new scars
And the broken pieces of the soul,
Where they untangle
The threads of the past
And use them
To weave the future,
Where they gain
The miraculous power of madness.

31/01/2024

You left town
No longer around
Now I frown
Day in and day out
I'm selfish for missing you
And I know you'll never forget
The day you said forever
Now we're both a mess
Might as well bury myself alive
Because I can't live with this misery
Diving into our history
Toxic as hell
Questioning who was at fault
When we both let it fall
Down it went
While we just neglect
Everything we had
Was faker than we could've guessed
We never said love
It was a word to be ignored
Because our relationship
was the breaking point
Nobody could afford
Two people full of envy
Who couldn't try to love one another
Even if they swore.

22/01/2024

Don't you dare tell me I'm beautiful
Until you've seen my scars
That carve my body And the blood
That pours out of my soul

Don't you dare tell me I'm lovely
Until I completely shut you out
Because I swore to myself
You're just like the rest
And you'll get sick of me

Don't you dare tell me I'm flawless
Until you've seen me break down in tears
I'll show you the darkness
That consumes me
And you'll run away

But if you
Have seen my scars
Bitterness
And darkness
Then perhaps I believe you

20/01/2024

They say that happiness will find you,
But I think sadness finds you too,
It sneaks up on you in darkness,
Just when you think you've made it through,
It opens holes in solid ground,
The kind you never know are there,
Until you take another step,
And find you're standing over air,
The world around you passes by,
In blurs of colour and sound,
Nothing around you makes sense,
As you continue your plummet down,
You can't remember how it started,
And you don't know when it will end,
But you know that you'd give anything,
To stand up on your feet again,
Sadness is that feeling,
When the falling doesn't stop,
And it saps your life of meaning,
And all the good things that you've got,
So when you finally hit the rock bottom,
And you look back up at the sky,
What you once had seems so far away,
The only thing left to do is cry,
People all yell out "save yourself",
Calling things about "happiness" and "hope",
But they're too busy with their lives to realise,
It'd be a lot quicker if they let down a rope.

15/01/2024

I'm my biggest problem
I'm my very last hope
My patheticness is humbling
I still don't know how to cope

My mind is always on the run
Yet my body stays forever frozen
I always find myself stunned
At the paths of which I've chosen

My best never seems good enough
My best self can't compete
Every single day seems tough
My worst self is hard to defeat

Constantly in a state of depression
Even when life's going well
It's a different kind of oppression
Being trapped in your own personal hell

I know things could be worse
But things could always be better
Thinking I'll only find peace in a hearse
Only content when I'm six feet under

I think of all the people id leave behind
I think about their sadness
But if only they could read my mind
Witness my mind's madness

13/01/2024

Screaming
Yet, I am silent
My lips are moving,
But no sound escapes
Ripping out my hair
Pulling at my clothes
The years are passing
I am growing older
I feel like a child
Trapped in this failing body
My heart continues to beat
Longing for music
My body is tired
My ribs hold my soul prisoner
My lungs expand with pain
Everyday is just another day
My words are lost,
And no one really cares
The masks are falling
I cannot put them back on
Grasping at air
This must be my end,
But I am still here
Screaming,
But no one can hear me.

13/01/2024

I'm dreading these thoughts
Verbal abuse, a sad youth
The more you say
The more I realize
I've never been enough
I hate the way
It ruins my day
And the power you gain
When tears fall down my face
I'm foolish to admit I believe you
Nobody has ever really, truly said
I am enough
Maybe it's something
I've got to find faith on my own Because you downplay my achievements And downgrade my hard work
But say you love and know me the most
I'm breaking down
And building up walls
That trapped me in this evil hopelessness Burned out mentally
Damn this discouragement
I just feel worthless
Seeking validation
While my heart keeps breaking

10/01/2024

My intentions were never to embody toxic masculinity, and I'm genuinely sorry if my actions made you feel that way. I value your perspective, and I'm open to understanding where I may have gone wrong. It's disheartening to learn about the betrayal, but I believe in growth and learning from experiences. Toxic masculinity is a burden I never intended to bring into our relationship. It's important to me to learn and grow from this experience. I appreciate your honesty, and if there's anything specific you'd like to discuss, I'm here to listen. I wish you healing and genuine happiness. May the future bring the clarity and understanding that we seek individually. Wishing you peace and happiness moving forward

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