Journey of a dad in limbo

15/05/2026

Today might be your birthday, but it is i that has been given the greatest gift. You.
11 years ago when you arrived was the greatest day of my life and 1 i wish i could replay over and over again. The moment you arrived was the moment i first experienced true love for the furst time.
ironically, your birth was symbolic of the way you seem to tackle life, head first and full speed ahead, which i like to proudly think is how i do so as well.
To watch you grow, even from a distance now is bitter sweet, on 1 hand i am exploding with pride at my athletic, quirky, intelligent, stubborn, driven and beautiful daughter and everyone who knows me knows just how proud i am of my 2 beautiful girls. On the other hand i am full of sadness and regret that i cannot be there in person to shelter, guide, mentor and protect you. I hope you know still just how much your dad loves you abd even though i am not there in person rest assured at any time i will be there in an instant if you need me.

I also hope you remember my advice to you, and you never stop asking questions. The world is a scary place at times and i hope i can be there to help guide you through safely.

I also hope you can remember me asking you to please stop growing so i can always cuddle you snd i hope you keep your promise of never being too big or grown to cuddle your dad.

I cannot wait for the day i get more squashes from you munchkin, never ever forget, i love you to the stars snd back and i will forever always be your loving dad

07/05/2026

Ohhh my ❤️

I am so in love with you 2 it hurts.
This just made my day opening these long awaited photos of my precious girls

I will hold onto these imafes in my head and heart til i can order another lot in 12 months and cry with sadness, love and pride at how you both are growing

19/04/2026

If you are 1 like me, know you aren't alone
Bella & Violet bear❤️ til we meet again

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07/04/2026

Screenshots from the school page is all i get if i am lucky.

School photo day is christmas for dads like me, watching from a distance 😢

My superstar Isabella ❤️

24/01/2026

Journey to watch the foo fighters in tassie tonight, yet more little memories i want so desperately to share with my 2 munchkins.
This song, best describes exactly how i feel and my current predicament watching my girls grow from afar.

Going to be a emotonal night

28/11/2025

On the same day as my daughters birthday I decided to get a little something in honour of my other little girl.

Unfortunately my children never got the opportunity to meet this sweet girl but I can absolutely guarantee all 3 would have been best of friends and it saddens me they all never got that opportunity to bond.

Sweet dreams my tala bear, til we meet again 💔

28/11/2025

Tuesday the 25th was my violet bears 9th birthday
Yet another without birthday cuddles from her dad,
Such a hollow feeling knowing it should be a day of celebration for us all.
Flowers and a cardboard sent to her school letting her know once again her dad loves her and is always thinking of her.

Til we meet again my beautiful little girl 💔

23/11/2025

One of the main reasons I come to Bali as often as I can. What I can't currently have with my children, I'm fortunate enough to be able to spend time with this beautiful family and be a tiny part of these girls lives.

Kinda takes the emptiness away a tiny bit at times

01/11/2025

Few little locals putting on a show

01/11/2025

The afternoon spent exploring the west coast of the island.
Plenty of beautiful spots to show my princesses.
Vivonne Bay was beautiful, refreshing and Flinders Cape had a special bunch of friends.
Check out the next post for them