11/06/2026
Part 4
My hubby and I had big dreams before we got married....we were young and full of dreams and a long wishlist...
I'm sure you can relate with that conversations couples have when planning their future together.
We spoke about where we would like to live... What cars we would like to drive. What schools we would want our children to attend etc..... In one of these conversations he told me that he would be a millionaire by the age of 40....πππ Oh yes!! That excited me Sooooo much.... Imagine.... A millionaire!!!! C'mon.... That would mean I would also be a millionaire lol..... πππ All I could see was me wearing expensive clothes, shoes, bags etc.
So this thought never left me.... π€π I would literally day dream about this.... We worked hard as a couple.... He worked overtime and loong hours.
When we got to Kroonstad I was at home for a few months, until I had my baby. When she was eight months old, I started working again. He pursued promotional posts, until he eventually worked for a mining company.... Earning a pretty penny.
Things went well..... I could see the millionaire lifestyle approaching. π We bought a beautiful big house in a sought after suburb.... He surprised me with a convertible Mercedes Benz for one of my birthdays..... He drove a 4x4...... We were living a comfortable life.... Hallelujah!
Until.......
"Things" started being stripped from us..... God started calling us into full time ministry.... First me..... Then him......
Then our vehicles.... Then our home (this was the hardest for me).... I didn't understand this..... Why? How can God allow this? What did we do to deserve this? This is not fair..... I was wrestlingπ€.
I couldn't understand that this would be God's plan for our lives.... I mean, He is not a God that would bless you, give you nice things, and then take it away from you.....
So I remember when my husband told me that we need to open our house for viewing for the estate agents.... I cried! I said, I'm not ready.
It was a tough season for me.... I really just needed time for God to work in my heart and give me peace....
So one night while everyone was sleeping, I went to travail in one of my rooms. I laid before God weeping... Asking him many things....
When I became quiet, the Holy Spirit asked me "why is it so hard for you to give up this house?". I responded "because you gave it to me." He asked again, "why is it so hard to give up this house?" I replied "because I know You will not give me something, and take it away.".... This back and forth went on, until eventually I just burst out "because what are people gonna say! They gonna mock us for buying such a beautiful house, and now, after a few years we have to move out.!"..... And I knew then that this was the real reason for me not being able to let go.... Right there I repented of living to impress others (which I didn't even know I was doing).
I asked God forgiveness, and I decided in my heart to let go! It was so liberating.... I remember that at that moment I felt so free. The attachment I had to the house just broke... I couldn't wait to tell my husband that the Agents could come...... And so they didπ.
We rented two houses after that move.... And I will never forget how God provided... He is indeed Jehovah Jireh!!!! The God that provides. π
One night I had a dream..... This was at the time we had to decide, are we gonna continue to rent this house wer living in, are we gonna rent a diff house, are we gonna purchase a house??? We were praying for direction....
So I dreamt.... I was busy studying in my home office (of the rented house we were living in).
As I was working at my desk, a young girl dressed in a long white dress, with long hair, came walking in. She said "the truck is here, we need to load the furniture. We're moving to the new house." I asked "what new house? Where is the house?". And this girl took a blank page and pen on my desk, and drew the route from our rented house, to a house on the other side of town. She drew the route the truck will travel, and when she got to the address of the new house, she made a big cross (X). In the dream, we loaded the truck and drove to the new house. When we stepped in the new house, I walked through the house, straight to the main bedroom. I said to my husband... Oh wow! Look here, there's a room with a desk between our bedroom and the en-suite. I can study here during winter, then I don't have to sit so far from you, in the office. "
The dream ended.... I woke up and immediately went to the office to draw the map.... I knew exactly where the house was, because one of our church members lived in the house opposite this X.
LOL! God is absolutely awesome..... Long story short.... Within two months we moved into our home... And we've been living here ever since...π
And the beauty about the dream was, that when I walked into the main bedroom, the day of the house viewing, there was a closet room between the bedroom and the en-suit, with a desk area. ππ (sometimes we think these things only happen in movies lol).
Oh yes.... Also..... While we lived in the rented homes, I made a list for God of what I want my next home to look like... π I told him all the things I want.... And He gave me all that in my new home. Praise the Lord!
But this time there's a difference..... I don't feel attached to the house, asif I would never want to move out.... I know that all that I have belongs to God.... I enjoy the comfort... I take good care of what He entrusted me with... But it's just different.... I'm not afraid of losing everything..... God can do as He sees fit.
What I do know is that He will take care of me always πππππ Hallelujah!
I might not be the millionaire I thought I'd be, but I have unspeakable riches, blessings, favour, joy..... Etc....... In abundance.
God is awesome!