08/04/2025
The psychological aspects of Kayin's message were addressed in this post https://www.facebook.com/BewareKayinOwensUpForGrabsAKAKroandKrodogg/posts/122107439684957181
But here, I want to discuss, the WHY I haven't spoken to Kayin in months. He knows why, he's just trying to deceive everyone else, including family which hurts me. He's also flat out lying, and playing the victim role, when he's consciously aware of the why.
1. I think the most concerning precursor to this nonsense, is Kayin voluntarily chooses to associate with Paula Gagnon Espinoza, which is both our biological mother. I explained to Kayin that this woman abused me physically as a child, neglected me as a young child (sometimes I wouldn't eat for days and I'd be left with strangers for long periods of time - several days), exposed her naked body to me multiple times, and even tried to seduce me at a young age at least twice, and forced me to shower with her, and encourage me to watch p**n around age 4-5 and do stuff with her while she was on the toilet. Pauala had also been in prison many times, and is used to sleeping around and mooching for housing, drugs, and even childbearing for an income. She has 4 biological children by 3-4 different men, and has put myself and the two youngest through multiple men. In fact I can count almost 2 dozen men trying to play the daddy role. Its disgusting and disturbing, both mentally, emotionally, and psychologically to myself and the others. Both myself and Kayin were born co***ne exposed from Paula, and taken into foster care. I had been from home to home as a child and when Kayin was born almost 9 years after me, we were in a home where they began abusing Kayin and I had enough of their crap also. I finally told DCFS and they removed us immediately and placed us with the Owens Family. Kayin was about just under age 2 at that point. Kayin was raised in a good home with the Owens family, and had a good childhood and upbringing. He throws it all down the drain when he becomes an adult. Hurts me more than I can handle with what he is doing with Paula. I told him several times I would cut him off he didn't correct his behavior. Kayin also began associating with his biological father, who I also knew as a kid growing up. His name is James, and he also has been in prison many times, and is a repeat felon and longtime drug addict. This is one of the major reasons. Worse, is Kayin calls me a liar, and wants to not believe the truth.
So, I tried sticking around as much as I could to try and help Kayin over the years, at least enough to make sure he got 8-9 Christmas gifts, and 8-9 birthday gifts, for missed time due to some personal issues in my own life that kept me from being in his life. I know what its like to have an older brother that's not there (Mike), and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone, so I did for Kayin what I wished my older brother Mike would have at lest done for me, and that was be an older brother until I had no more reason to.
2. Kayin's comments over the years became more aggressive, confrontational, and toxic. Not sure why. He also began telling me exaggerated stories about his personal life, and work life, etc. Some of it I didn't find out until recently, also. I'm the only one that's ever been there for Kayin from his birth to now, and the only one that's ever be truthful with him, when everyone else tells him lies, or plays the frenemy game. Unfortunately Kayin seems to believe a larger number of people telling Kayin lies, than me, a single person who's telling him the truth. He's gullible, and so he paints this picture of me being some kind of evil monster telling him lies and such. Paula lies to him about my upbringing. He eve contacted one of the abusive foster homes last year and they lied too. Then he asked me, "So they're lying too huh?" in a sarcastic way. There's a lot lot more on Kayin's behavior and statements, that have caused me much pain and sorrow, I can't deal with him anymore. This man is not the little brother I grew up with.
3. Kayin even takes his comments further. He publically lashed out against my business Game Master once. I;m an honest seller, and I do computer repairs and gaming builds, and even had a storefront. Just reached eBay's highest seller standard, was making a paychek on YT also with gaming vids. He did the same thing with a homeless charity I ran, Angel Services Illinois Homeless Outreach Care, where I would provide emergency housing and emergency employment to the homeless. I did that for 5 years, before I closed it down a couple months ago. It was state wide, then I ra it nationally for 1 year, before going back to state-wide. Called me a fraud, and a scammer, and I never even asked for donations, I literally funded everything from my own pocket from trucking. I also started a PT side job as a paralegal from my semi, and contracted with attorneys after completing some college courses. I had a lot of money, and I had several lawyers contracted with me, because many fresh lawyers didn't have the money to start-up business, and so it was a win-win. Well he publically defamed me with that also, again, calling me a scam artist and all that. I had legal business filings for everything too, and eve spent 2 hours uploading everything to this hard-headed brat after he publically ruined genuine business,and worse, homeless people needing a shelter and income, who may have been freezing, starving, or suffering dehydration and near death, like I had gone through once. Even goes so far to publically claim I f**k my physically disabled dog Jack, who has hip dysplasia, arthritis in both hips, and a badly healed right leg from previous owner abuse. He's a terrible person. He's a deceiver, and a liar, and he's a drug addict, just like both his biological parents.
Now Kayin and I are at that point. Problem is, he's a bum, with no real income or job, and no education to get a job, not even a GED or high school diploma, the exact same crap I walked into when I came of age, that got me homeless eventually, many years ago. He's faking his online account activity with his FB buying and selling to make people believe he's much more than what he is, lied and said he bought a house, when he's been mooching ff this poor girl Faith Hann for half a decade.
So what do I do? He treats me terribly. Calls me a liar. Convinces our adopted family members to be against me and they actually believe him. This kid needs to be fixed or put down, and at this point either works, but the way he is now, he is too ruined to ever have a life or future and be successful. And he goes on to write s**t posts like the highlighted seen here, when he knows damned well the reason he's been blocked by me on my personal account and the Game Master FB page, because he likes to hurt people and their honest business for absolutely no reason with his comments. Likes to hurt and break a good family apart like the comments and lies he made on his FB. Likes to twist the story around and deceive people and play the victim role.
So raising public awareness is my last resort. This kid is going to get fixed or put to sleep at this point. He can get better or get snuffed out like a candle flame. I would prefer he gets better, but at this point is much less likely a chance then at any point in the past. He's been lied to and twisted by too many people he's in contact like our biological mother, his biological father, several of his friends and past co-workers on drugs, and heck, even our adoptive dad at one point.
So, gee, I wonder what in the world I blocked Kayin for? Hhmmm, it must be a mystery. See the big problem is, when he goes homeless because he can't get a job, because he has no education, literaly none at all, I have to keep putting up with this deadbeat to make sure he don't die in the streets, or starve to death, or freeze to death, or die of thirst in winter, so I want my bum brother to get a GED and get at least one college or career credential, so I can forget about him and move on without feeling like our POS older brother Mike.