07/02/2026
My Dearest Izan,
Happy 8th Birthday in heaven.
It has been eight years since I held you in my arms for that one incredible hour. I often close my eyes and try to go back to that moment, to the weight of you against my chest and the softness of your skin. Even though we only had sixty minutes together, they were the most profound minutes of my life.
I wonder what you would be like today at eight years old. I imagine your laugh would fill the house, and I see you running through the grass with a spirit that was always too bright for this world. I like to think you’re playing among the stars, knowing exactly how much you are loved down here.
Anencephaly took our time together, but it could never take the fact that I am your mother and you are my son. You didn't need a lifetime to leave a mark on my soul; you did it with your very first breath.
I carry you with me in everything I do. Every sunrise reminds me of the light you brought into my world, and every quiet moment is a chance for me to whisper "I love you" to the wind, hoping it carries my voice straight to you.
Thank you for choosing me to be your mom, even if only for an hour. You are my forever boy.
Reason why I started Anencephaly Awareness Philippines, through them I see you. To every child's smile I remember you.
With all my love, always,
Mama
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